Every day I drive the same road. Driving south, I head to work. Driving north, I head home. I've been driving this road since I first got my license many a year ago. The road hasn't changed much. There have been new patches of concrete/blacktop added here and there. A couple of stoplights have been added. But the overall road hasn't really changed.
Driving south, I'm familiar with the bumps, the turns and where the potholes are that I want to avoid. Driving north, it's the same. There are some times (and I know this isn't a good thing) that I can drive this road and not really see much. I'm on auto pilot. I drive to work. I drive home.
Recently, they have been working on the road at night. Cutting down through the concrete to get to the water pipes below the road. Honestly, they are making a mess of a once okay road. Should it ever rain here in California again, there will be new potholes and bumps to avoid.
This road construction has meant one way traffic control. The northbound traffic is now diverted into the southbound lane, past the construction. The other night, as I drove northbound in the southbound lane I realized this road that I was so familiar with, had suddenly become something completely different. The bumps and curves were different. I was driving the same road but everything had changed.
The bumps and curves that I knew so well traveling south in the correct lane, felt different and unfamiliar traveling north. I didn't know how to anticipate the road anymore. I suddenly felt disoriented and was very glad to move back into the correct northbound lane as I passed the construction zone.
This road realization has a direct correlation to my life. I'm traveling the same roads yet somehow the lanes have switched and everything is different. The bumps and curves are hard to anticipate. I'm doing the same thing I was doing before April 29th and June 2nd. Yet, I'm driving on the "wrong" side of the road because there's this big gaping hole that I'm maneuvering around, ever aware of it's presence and achingly aware that the hole is going to remain open and under construction for a very, very long time.
Driving north in the southbound lane...it's a whole new adventure.