So Sunday, I came home from church and a quick stop at G.G's to turn on the water for her dogwood tree (being a dutiful niece following a text from her uncle who was thinking about his mom) and gathered up clothes to wash. I remembered my yellowing purse and grabbed it, emptying the contents onto the coffee table. I put everything in the HE washer, hit start and went back out to go back to G.G's house to turn off the water (it had been about 20 minutes total).
As I drove the mile and a half or so, it occurred to me that I didn't have my cell phone with me and my brain began to backtrack. The last place I remembered having it was when I was sitting in the chair, with my purse. Hmmm. I finished what I was doing at G.G's and headed back home.
I arrived at home and searched for my phone. High and low. With dawning horror, I called my number, listening for the buzz so I could locate it...and it went straight to voicemail. CR*P. I knew where it was. At that moment I heard the washer slow to switch cycles and I hightailed it to the bathroom. Opening the washer, I reached in, felt around and found my phone.
And I fell apart. Not because of the phone. I could care less about the phone. It wasn't about the pictures. Yes, there were some great pics on the phone but they were on a MicroSD card that was more likely to be salvageable. No, I fell apart because on that phone is a video from December 2013 of Papa Bear and Little Miss P. It was after dinner one night and she was using the napkin rings and napkins to decorate her Grandpa. At one point she draped the napkin over his head, placed the gold napkin ring on his ear and proclaimed "He's a pirate!" She was giggling, he was giggling, sitting patiently and enjoying the moment. The video is only a minute and 35 seconds long but it's the only thing left where I can hear Papa Bear's laugh and his voice. Where I can see him move, blinking to adjust the contact lens that was knocked off his eye in the fun, holding onto Little Miss P so she didn't fall off, and in the final seconds, leaning forward and to hug her. I fell apart fearing that one last connection was lost.
We aren't a family that has done a lot of video recording, nor are we so good with taking photos, though I have plenty of photo's to remind me of good times with Papa Bear. It's the sound of his voice and his laugh that I so desperately long to hear again. As I sat pulling apart the phone, drying off everything I could reach, googling how to dry out a phone and MicroSD card, my heart was breaking again.
Yo Momma and I had made plans with some friends, and so after doing what I could to salvage those items, we left home. I broke down on the car ride to our friends house. The looming sense of ONE MORE loss just too much to handle. Yo Momma cried with me as I shared my worries.
I've held myself together over little, silly things these past 15 months. But this one didn't seem so little or so silly. This one was tangible. I can watch that video over and over again and for a minute and a half, I can see and hear Papa Bear again.
As I contemplated my phone that was sitting at home drying out, with the potential only copy of an irreplaceable video trapped inside, a glimmer of hope suddenly pushed it's way to the surface. When I was putting together the slideshow for Papa Bear's celebration of life party, had I transferred the video from my phone to the laptop? I patiently waited through the movie and ice cream with my friends (and enjoyed the time) but once we got home, I turned on the laptop and stared at it with the fervor of that lady who starred in the Mervyn's ad's years ago thinking, "Open, open, open."
A few clicks later, I opened a file and breathed fully for the first time in a few hours. The panic eased as I watched Papa Bear and Little Miss P on the screen, playing, laughing and hugging. I heard his voice, listened to his laugh and saw Papa Bear again. I cried and cried and cried. I hadn't lost that connection after all.
My washed phone is truly dead. I have a new one. Phones are easily replaceable. I've lost most of my contacts but I can get many of those back. The MicroSD card works. I've transferred the photos onto a flash drive. I've backed up the video onto a flash drive and will be putting it on a DVD and Dropbox. I'm not taking any chances. All was not lost, and for that I am very grateful.
|"He's a pirate!"|