I don't like labels. I use labels, I am labeled, I don't like labels. Labels do not tell the true story of who I am, who others are. It's just a name, a way to group people, things, together to help our human brains make sense of the world around us.
Still, there are labels attached to me. One of those labels is "Christian", though I prefer the label "Christ Follower". Still, in that label there is a connotation that I need to recognize and take seriously. That label says I follow Jesus, I believe in God and to some extent it says my life, my actions, my words represent God and Jesus. I am still a flawed human being. My words, my actions, my life don't always reflect the God and Jesus I follow. I mess up regularly. I am not God. I am not Jesus. Yet with my life, my words, my actions I speak for God.
I am tired of hearing others with the label Christian stand up after horrific events happen in the world and say things such as "God is pouring out judgment" or "It's because we've taken God out of our society" or "God is rejoicing". I am tired of these people being the ones I see on my homepage when I open my web browser.
I am tired of hearing about God's judgment and how awful we are and how we are all turning our backs on God from people "in the know" (IMHO, that means they have access to the media and they use it). I am tired of the condemnation and the lack of compassion or LOVE. I am tired of Christians speaking for God when all they can say is "You are bad. You are awful." T.I.R.E.D.
That rhetoric is turning people away from God. Turning them away from a God that, I believe, grieves alongside the mothers and father and brothers and sisters and grandparents and friends. Saying "You turned your back, now deal with the consequences" is heartless and (yep, here comes my judgment) says a lot about the heart of the person speaking.
Absolutely, we live in a fallen world. Crap happens, it is horrific and many times the answers to the question "why" are so hard to find, if we find them at all. Yet into that fallen, broken world God sent Jesus. God sent Jesus into the world to be love. To be hope. To bring a message of love and hope. God hasn't given up on the world.
So, I am going to speak for God right now. To the families, to the community, to the nation, in this most recent horrific nightmare please hear from this broken, human woman with the label Christ Follower, the questions are large and looming and though it may seem like God does not care, God does care. God is near and grieving along with you. I don't know why God didn't stop it. There are many times when I don't understand God but I do know this, the God I follow loves you and hurts with you.