One of the things I like to do is bake. Cakes in particular. I like seeing what can be created, testing out new recipes and I love cake. A couple of weeks ago I got a little creative, in my quest to find a good white/yellow cake recipe (from scratch). I took my favorite chocolate cake recipe and just left out the chocolate. Then I added Lemon Curd to the buttercream frosting and YUM! Still not completely in love with the cake recipe, so I'll keep testing.
Today I am making a Salted Caramel Chocolate Cake. It's from Martha's magazine. I made the cake yesterday and the caramel and frosting today. Currently the cake sits in the fridge, layered with the caramel, waiting for the frosting. But I noticed a little issue. The caramel is kinda oozing from the layers (6 total). Which brings me to my problem with baking.
I tend to want to rush things along. I don't always give myself enough time and try to rush the process. Today is good example. The caramel probably should have cooled just a little bit more before I added it to the layers, it probably wouldn't ooze as much. But I'm supposed to be somewhere in 10 minutes with the cake, so I couldn't wait! The result is a cake that I hope will taste good but looks a little messy.
I realized as I was thinking about it, that I'm not very good at waiting in life sometimes either. Especially now. I want a job. I want to be settled into something and not just floundering. I want this process to speed up. Instead of really enjoying the moments, I'm finding myself getting anxious and trying to rush things along. But that's not how God works. I heard the other day that the average job search takes 180 days. I almost flipped out. That's 6 months! I can't wait 6 months to have a job!!!
Or can I? Is it really up to me? Am I really trusting that God has me on this journey? Am I really trusting that God will provide what I need, when I truly need it? Or am I doubting God's promise to be with me on the journey? I think I may be rushing the process. *Sigh*
Got to go, I have a cake to frost.