Sunday, October 30, 2011

Rushing the process

One of the things I like to do is bake.  Cakes in particular.  I like seeing what can be created, testing out new recipes and I love cake.  A couple of weeks ago I got a little creative, in my quest to find a good white/yellow cake recipe (from scratch).  I took my favorite chocolate cake recipe and just left out the chocolate.  Then I added Lemon Curd to the buttercream frosting and YUM!  Still not completely in love with the cake recipe, so I'll keep testing.

Today I am making a Salted Caramel Chocolate Cake.  It's from Martha's magazine.  I made the cake yesterday and the caramel and frosting today.  Currently the cake sits in the fridge, layered with the caramel, waiting for the frosting.  But I noticed a little issue.  The caramel is kinda oozing from the layers (6 total).  Which brings me to my problem with baking.

I tend to want to rush things along.  I don't always give myself enough time and try to rush the process.  Today is good example.  The caramel probably should have cooled just a little bit more before I added it to the layers, it probably wouldn't ooze as much.  But I'm supposed to be somewhere in 10 minutes with the cake, so I couldn't wait!  The result is a cake that I hope will taste good but looks a little messy.

I realized as I was thinking about it, that I'm not very good at waiting in life sometimes either.  Especially now.  I want a job.  I want to be settled into something and not just floundering.  I want this process to speed up.  Instead of really enjoying the moments, I'm finding myself getting anxious and trying to rush things along.  But that's not how God works.  I heard the other day that the average job search takes 180 days.  I almost flipped out.  That's 6 months!  I can't wait 6 months to have a job!!!

Or can I?  Is it really up to me?  Am I really trusting that God has me on this journey?  Am I really trusting that God will provide what I need, when I truly need it?  Or am I doubting God's promise to be with me on the journey?  I think I may be rushing the process.  *Sigh*

Got to go, I have a cake to frost.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

ozzy caramel and all the cake was so rich and delicious, I think I'll have another piece. Probably a little smaller this time but boy oh boy was it good.