I've started and stopped a number of posts over the last couple of days. Though there are words that are begging to be let out, there's a part of me that always holds back not wanting to over share. It's a struggle that I always feel when it comes to blogging. I want to share yet where is the line? When does it become just whining and over sharing? I don't have that answer yet.
I've been a busy girl lately. Last weekend was Cousin V's wedding, which I was so honored to officiate. What made it even more fun was that 29 of the 30 family members (and significant other's married or not) on that side of the family were together at the same time. It was fun to see the 2nd cousins running around playing and laughing. There were photographs taken, I just don't happen to have them. They will come later.
My one day a week job has been good for me. Youth Pastor Friend, Mr. T., has been out of town but he left me with a list of things to do...which I've pretty much done. On the list was to start clearing off his desk and going through pictures. Just would like it recorded that when I was in youth ministry I was given a REALLY bad time for the state of my office. My office had nothing on Mr. T's. Just sayin'.
Aunt C asked today if I had gotten back to a normal schedule after the weekend and I laughed to myself. I don't know what normal is lately but I'm enjoying it. Something comes up every day. Take Monday for example. I had lunch plans with Amy and needed to drop off an application for a very brief job (Child Care at a camp this weekend) but had nothing on the schedule for the rest of the day. Then LN texted and I wound up getting coffee with her and a behind-the-scenes tour of the local amusement park. It was a pretty cool! If this is normal, I like it!
Today marks my 37th year in the world. I'm enjoying my free birthday coffee with a side of peace and quiet and will enjoy pizza and the company of K, N, Meg and kiddo's later today. I've been showered with blessings and well wishes all day and am feeling very loved.
That said, there is stuff brewing beneath the surface on this birthday (see beginning of this post) and I'm aware more than ever that God is in control of my life and I am not. Totally grateful for where I've been, the people that God has surrounded me with and for the opportunity that I have right now to sit back, to pray, ponder and listen. Just can't help wanting God to hurry things up already!